Dec 18, 2011
Dec 12, 2011
I have had far more experiences where I have heard His voice or just had a feeling that I had to do something. For example, one morning I woke up with the overwhelming feeling that I had to go to Mass that day. There wasn't anything particularly special about that day, but it turned out that the homily was exactly what I needed to hear.
I would love to hear what your experience has been with visions or other encounters with God. Did your vision effect a change in you or were you directed to do something for God. Please post them in the comment box.
Dec 9, 2011
Some of those in defiance of the Church may never understand that when they defy the teachings of the Church, they are defying God. We must have hope that they will see the error of their ways before it is too late to repent. Until that day comes, we must follow St. Theresa's example of total obedience to our Church. From this obedience we can reform the Catholic Church and drown out those voices of dissent. St. Theresa led the way in reforming the Church in her time, it is our turn to do so in our time.
Nov 13, 2011
|This is the retreat center and hotel.|
|Inside Sts. Isidore and Maria Church on the grounds|
|One of the many beautiful sun rises that can be seen across the prairie surrounding the retreat center.|
|Our Lady of the Prairie|
|One of the outdoor Stations of the Cross|
Nov 8, 2011
Be careful what you ask of God, He might just give it to you. I am one of those people who St. Teresa says sins so often that they can't see their sins. The examination of conscience guides have been no help, so I've struggled with confession. My walk on Saturday opened my eyes. God gave me the grace to see all of the wrong that I had been doing. It was very hard to take this reality check. It's a real shock to discover that you're not as good as you think you are.
I had the luck of going to confession that night and left Sunday a much more humble person.
Thank you for opening my eyes, Lord, so that I may be more like you.
Nov 4, 2011
Today is the end of the first full day of my silent retreat at Broom Tree Retreat Center near Irene, SD. It started yesterday at 6, but today was really the first day. I thought that not chatting would be the hardest part. Was I ever wrong. The hardest part was getting all of the voices in my head to shut up so that God could talk. I am so used to all the noise of everyday life and all of it's distractions that my mind didn't know what to do in all this quiet. As the day has gone on the noise has been going away and God's voice is getting clearer.
Last night after Mass, I got the clear vision of Jesus with hand out beaconing me to walk with him. With all the noise in my head I avoided him. Being the patient and merciful God he humored me and just stood on that path all day. Until tonight that is. At eucharistic adoration He spoke again. He said, "Tomorrow you will walk with me." I, of course, could only answer with "Ok." To be perfectly honest, my mind was starting to wander when he spoke up, so I was a little startled. So I guess tomorrow I better be ready to listen.
Aug 28, 2011
In an office setting you make friends and get distracted by idle chatter, lunch dates, etc. At Walmart my schedule is unique and rarely do I have a break with someone I know. Thanks to the Divine Office app on my phone I can say morning or evening prayer while on break. My phone also allows me to read electronic books, so instead of watching whatever mindless program is on the TV I open one of my many books. Right now I am about half way through Welcome to the Secular Order of Discalced Carmelites by Aloysius Deeney, OCD.
The book is a compilation of speeches given by Aloysius Deeney on the Vocation of OCDS. As an Aspirant I am required to read the first speech on discernment. The others are for my own personal reading.
Aug 25, 2011
I trust in you to lead me where you want me to go.
I trust in you to help me shoulder my burdens.
I trust in you to give me strength to handle what comes my way.
I trust in you.
Aug 9, 2011
Jul 20, 2011
Lead me, Lord, lead me, Lord,
by the light of truth
to seek and to find the narrow way.
Be my way; be my truth;
be my life, my Lord,
and lead me, Lord, today.
Jul 19, 2011
Jul 18, 2011
Tomorrow I am meeting two of my new found sisters at the monastery for morning prayers and mass, then we are meeting to begin development of a website for our group. The least I can do to show my appreciation is to use my extensive computer skills to help them out. Pope Benedict has said to use all of the means available to evangelize and that is what we are going to do. Maybe this little venture will help at least one lost soul.
Jul 10, 2011
O God, of Whose mercies there is no number, and of Whose goodness the treasure is infinite; we render thanks to Your most gracious majesty for the gifts You have bestowed upon us, evermore beseeching Your clemency, that as You grant the petitions of them that ask You, You will never forsake them, but will prepare for the reward to come. Through Christ our Lord. Amen.
Jul 5, 2011
Jun 26, 2011
Jun 25, 2011
You made me Your child
and called me to walk in the Light of Christ.
Free me from darkness
and keep me in the Light of Your Truth.
The Light of Jesus has scattered
the darkness of hatred and sin.
Called to that Light,
I ask for Your guidance.
Form my life in Your Truth,
my heart in Your Love.
Through the Holy Eucharist,
give me the power of Your Grace
that I may walk in the Light of Jesus
and serve Him faithfully.
Jun 19, 2011
Euthanasia takes away a persons suffering, but it also takes away any chance for good either towards that person or from that person. Suffering is a reminder not to waste what little life that we each have. As St. Theresa said, "black is that much blacker against white and white is so much whiter against black." Without the contrast everything would just look gray.
Abortion is another grave sin for which supporters believe they are helping. I read a bumper sticker recently that said, "Abortion doesn't make you unpregnant, it makes you the mother of a dead baby". Although rather harsh sounding it is so true and heart breaking. It may not sink in right away, but one day it will and those women will have to live with the fact that they murdered their own child. The intentional killing of children by their mother doesn't destroy just one life. It destroys two lives.
Same-sex marriage seems harmless enough. Supporters just want homosexual couples to have the same happiness that other couples have. If only it was that innocent. Marriage is a unique bond between a man and woman. It's not just for love or producing children, but a covenant created by God that binds two people together in love and as the basic support system for the raising of children. Homosexual couples may love each other, but they weren't designed by God to fulfill the marital covenant or to be the basic support system for raising of children. They as a couple can never have children. While there are couples that are infertile or choose not to have children, they still fulfill that covenant and make up the basic structure to support children.
I pray that the people led astray by their good intentions will have time to realize their mistake and repent. It would be very sad indeed to discover too late that they have paved their path to Hell with these good intentions.
I will be so, no more;
I renounce sin,
I renounce the Devil,
I renounce iniquity that stains my soul;
free my soul from all that is against Your holiness;
Jun 14, 2011
As my Bishop likes to say, "Catholics aren't good listeners." And he's right. Our minds wander while in prayer, at Mass, and especially during the homily. Theresa advises that one close their eyes to worldly things and distractions so they can better focus on God. She also talks about having the image of Jesus in your mind as if you were two normal people having a conversation. Now I don't know about her, but to me Jesus is anything but a "normal person".
These two simple acts have greatly helped my sense of focus during prayer and while in church. My understanding of the rituals and words have opened up greater depths of appreciation and love during Mass. It makes it seem less like a chore and more like a piece of art that unfolds in new and unique ways to express our love for God. In prayer I have grown closer to Jesus as he sits patiently listening to me pour out my soul to him. At times I curl in his lap like a young daughter who needs comfort and other times I look upon him from afar in awe of his greatness. I am grateful for St. Theresa's beautiful testament and instruction.
Give me focus
in my thoughts
and in my actions
Curb my tongue
from impulsive words
Let all that I do
Jun 6, 2011
God's mission for me is prayer. I struggle with this mission. Especially on days I'd rather stay in bed than go to Mass or pray the hours or go to Eucharistic Adoration. But when I think about whether staying in bed is better than spending time with God my answer is a definitive No. So I pull myself out of bed and start my journey on that long road up hill praying that each day will be a testament that "I tried, Lord."
Last week was tougher than most. School has ended so my usual schedule of getting up, going to daily mass, come back home, tell my son to get out of bed for the first time, take the dog out, mention it's time to get up again, pray the morning hours, yell at my son to get out of bed so he's not late for school, wait for him to get a shower and get dressed, drop him off at school. Then at night there was a normal routine that is ruined because it's just too darn hot to go to bed at my normal time. Let's just say that getting out of bed at 6 am after going to bed at midnight or later just doesn't make me a pleasant person and sleeping in and missing morning hours makes me just as cheerful. So I have broke down and turned on my air conditioning so that I can get back to a somewhat normal routine. How religious kept their schedule prior to A/C I think is miraculous.
But I thank the Lord each morning for the beautiful day and try to spend as much of it outside admiring his wonderful creation. I find it so much easier to meditate on Our Lord when I can feel his presents in the blowing of the wind, the orchestra of bird songs, and swaying of the trees. His presence is so strong it's impossible not to marvel at how complex a system he created. I get a tiny glimpse at what it must feel like to be in heaven. And this long road up hill that I'm on just seems a little bit easier.
Most high, all-powerful, all good, Lord!
All praise is yours, all glory, all honor
~ St. Francis of Assisi
May 28, 2011
May 23, 2011
May 11, 2011
May 9, 2011
Prayer to the Eucharistic Heart of JesusHeart of Jesus in the Eucharist,
I adore You.
Sweet Companion of our exile,
I seek You.
Holy God become man,
I beat with Your Heart.
Eucharistic Heart of Jesus,
ignored by men,
have mercy on us.
Lover of our hearts,
pleading for Your beloved,
patiently waiting for us,
eager to hear our confidences,
desirous of our devotion,
have mercy on us.
Heart of grace,
silent and wishing to speak,
Refuge of the hidden life,
Sharer of the secrets of union with God,
Eucharistic Heart of Jesus,
have mercy on us.
Jesus, Victim, I want to comfort You.
I unite myself with You.
I offer myself in union with You.
I count myself as nothing before You.
I desire to forget myself and think only of You,
to be forgotten and rejected for love of You,
not to be understood, not to be loved, except by You.
I will hold my peace that I may listen to You.
I will forsake myself in order to be lost in You.
Grant that I may quench Your thirst for my salvation,
Your burning thirst for my sanctification,
and that, being purged, I may give You a true and pure love.
I no longer want to deny Your expectations.
Take me. I give myself to You.
I entrust to You all my actions and thoughts -- my mind, that You may enlighten it,
my heart, that You may fill it,
my will, that You may establish it,
my soul and body, that You may feed and sustain them.
Eucharistic Heart of Jesus,
Whose Blood is the life of my soul,
may it no longer be I who live,
but You alone Who lives in me.
May 8, 2011
To my child who always keeps me on my toes, but is there with a ready hug when I need it. I love you.
To my physical mother, who gave birth to me and raised me on her own I say thank you and I love you.
To my spiritual mother, Mary, the mother to us all, I am thankful when you are there for me when my physical mother can't be. I am thankful for your powers of patience and compassion. But most of all I'm thankful for your strength. I imagine that being the mother of God is an easy task, but then remember all the pain you must have gone through when your only child was drug away, beaten and crucified. I could never have been in your place. Thank you for all that you do and I love you.
May 6, 2011
Beginning Holy Week I began my commitment to going to daily Mass. Normally I go to Mass at noon because I like my sleep, but I have decided to go to early Mass this morning. I was tired and not at all thrilled to be out of bed before 7:00 a.m. God was gracious and didn't strike me with lightening for complaining about Mass being so early which I'm very thankful for. As Father was saying Mass the same phrase jumped out at me several times. "Pray for those who have no one to pray for them."
Even now I get chills and tear up just thinking about it. It is such an intense feeling that I want to shout for joy and scream all at the same time. It seems like such an impossible task to pray for those who have no one to pray for them. There are so many lost and lonely souls that I wonder how my tiny prayers could be any effect. But if praying for them is what God wants me to do, that is what I'm going to do.
Prayer for Adopting a Dying Soul